S C Ackroyd

Hi Dad
I miss you soooooooooooooooooo muuuuuuccccccchhhhhhhh
i just can't get used to you not been here.Its short n sweet (just like me ). I LOVE YOU goonight godbless Luv Me xxx xxx xxx

Bev Mardy (Daughter) September 21, 2009

Hi Dad ,
Me again. At 7pm today, it will be exactly 11 weeks since you closed your eyes, free from pain. Although it seems a life time since to me. I love and miss you soooo much. I can't ever see this feeling i have going away. Now i wear the shoes (as they say) and its true what they say, they are ugly and painful and there's no way you can take them off.i will wear these shoes my whole life through cos NO WAY, NO HOW am i ever going to forget or stop loving and missing you.I feel so alone, like no-one understands how i feel without you. It feels like people look at me and think get over it girl its happened so deal with it. What no-one seams to say is HOW. HOW do i get through this nightmare i'm living cos your not here. I HATE THESE SHOE'S GOD CHOSE FOR ME TO WEAR. You were and still are one of the most loved people i know, you were loved by many people cos you had a heart of gold. A TRUE GENTLEMAN through and through. Give my girls a big hug n kiss and please take care of one and other. I love you so much. goodnight godbless xxx xxx luv me xxx

Bev Mardy (Daughter) September 7, 2009

Hi Dad,
just want you to know that even though your not here i still love you as much if not more than i did when you were here. I miss you sooooooo much. I'm finding it really hard without you. As well as being a brilliant Dad you were also one of my best friends. I hope to god that you are not suffering anymore, it broke my heart to see you in so much pain. The only good thing to remember about the awful time is that you got your wish (even though it was for a short time) xxx xxx YOU GOT TO COME HOME xxx xxx and for that i am truely thankful. I love you Dad goodnight godbless xxx luv me xxx

Bev Mardy (Daughter) August 28, 2009

Hi Dad me again. Sorry its been a while but i'm missing you so much i just can't get used to you not been here. The holiday was good but knowing you still wouldn't be here when i got back made me feel even worse. This is a bad month as you know. Please, please give my girls a party they will never forget. Their only 21 once. I wish it was me they were gonna celebrate with, but hey it just wasn't meant to be. Sorry its short and sweet. I love you soo much xxx goodnight god bless LUV ME xxx xxx xxx

Bev Mardy (Daughter) August 8, 2009

Hi Dad i'm back again. I've had a really bad day today. I cant believe you have only been gone two weeks......... it seems like you've been gone a billion years and more. I'm really really missing you.I love you so much,i just can't see an end to this horrible heartbreak i'm feeling. How will i ever get used to you not been around..... i know you wouldn't want me to be sad and hurt, but because i love you so much i am and nothing or no-one but you could stop that. But i know you will never come back so i have to try myself.sorry this is only a short messsage but like i say i'm having a bad day today. I'll be back soon. Love you loads Luv Me xxx xxx xxx

Bev Mardy (Daughter) July 6, 2009

Hey Dad i can't believe you've gone. I miss you soooo much. I don't think my heart will ever mend. you have left a whole that no-one can ever fill.I keep waiting for you to fone me but it doesn't happen anymore .... i feel so empty i don't know what to do. When i was a little girl i used to imagine what it would be like to have a Dad who would love me and be there for me no matter what (cos as you know my father has never been there for me and never will be).Then when i was 25yrs old my mum met you and my life changed forever. YOU WERE EVERYTHING I HAD EVER DREAMED AND HOPED FOR. for 16 wonderful years you showed me what it was like to have a Dad that loved me and was proud of me. You were also very proud of my husband and our 3 wonderful boys. I can't believe you won't be here to see our 1st grandhild in december, but where ever you are i know you will be watching over us all and guiding us with your love. I'll make sure the baby knows who you are and that you would have been the proudest great-grandad in the whole world. I love you so much Dad. Keep showing me the signs that your still around me and i'm sure things will get a bit easier although at this moment in time i can't ever see that happening. You made such an impact in my life i can't see my world without you in it. Sleep peacefully. I'll write again soon till then. Good night god bless x x x x x x x x x

Bev Mardy (Daughter) July 4, 2009